i eat

FEAR

Alchemize!

Fear into Ecstasy

Paralysis into Action

Indecision into Progress

Facing Death so we may finally Live.

Hollow valor stays standing for only so long.  By visiting this page, you’ve already crossed through the first gate of an education in fear: acknowledgement.

Culturally, we’re barely equipped to honor the inevitable transitions built into the cycle of life: childhood’s end, parenting, aging and death.  The pace of world events is challenging us to grow even faster, to face our fears more often than ever before.

Fear of losing what is already gone.

Fear of our own vast powers.

Fear, when received whole-heartedly, creates powerful and aligned action.  Fear left untethered and unloved, takes us nowhere, backwards.

I stand in offering to walk by your side.  To share my knowledge on how to live, breathe and see in the Dark.  How to distinguish the first signs of dawn.

Saint Nightmare takes you places you wouldn’t dare go alone.

Mastering fear is how you leave outdated, stagnant, boring, under-stimulating, soul-sucking jobs and relationships.

Mastering fear is antidote to the patriarchal archetype of red-blooded bravery.

Mastering fear is necessary to survive the trial of being alive in this era of endings and unsung seeds.

Mastering fear brings the relief of ecstasy.

Mastering fear midwives creations and dreams.

Mastering fear makes you a force of nature.

HELLO TO THE GREAT UNKNOWN!

Treat yourself to this free 30-minute call.

Together we’ll discover the Greater Vision hiding behind your fears, and a perfect next step for making your dreams come true.

Carly Pick, Herbalist. BOULDER, CO

“NO ONE ELSE WOULD DANGLE ME ON THE EDGE WITH SUCH DETERMINATION.”

Anthony Rush, Scientist and Artist. OAKLAND, CA

“You are a liberator and a protector!

An aliveness warrior.

A soul-burst of creaturely expression.

Breathing inspiration to me; a guide; one whom within I see mirrored parts of myself that yearn to freely express and sing their gratitudes upon witnessing you.”

Sofie Lynn, Hair Art. OAKLAND, CA

Nicky is the one who reaches into the realms of spirit to listen deeply.

She is a mirror and helps me to see my own soul’s path more clearly. 

A way shower, a fierce cheerleader and a guide.

An exuberant reflection of life’s mysterious web.

An unapologetic mystic here to shake up systems of oppression within and without.

Leisa Peterson, Author, The Mindful Millionaire. SEDONA, AZ

“Being in Nicky’s inquisitive presence has led me to becoming a better teacher, leader, and human.  Nicky's ability to explore complex subjects with grace and curiosity is one of the many things I enjoy about working with her…wherever she goes, she can't help but inspire people to change their lives for the better.  I’m grateful for every conversation we share together.”

Keegan Dimmick. Mesa Rim Reno Site Manager. RENO, NV

“I was in my infancy with my knowledge and understanding of gender and inclusivity policies. While I have more experience dealing with conversations around race and sexuality, the gender diversity conversation was very new to myself, and some of my colleagues, and posed a large opportunity to learn and help turn myself into a safer, more caring person, and at the same time help turn our company into a safer, more caring space. I hoped to find a mentor and space that would allow safe dialogue. To ask for help is to show some ignorance and vulnerability and I hoped to find a space where vulnerability was appreciated. I also wanted to find answers to questions that I didn't feel qualified to answer. What sticks out to me is how important it is for change to feel organic, and sometimes slow. Nicky was patient while also expecting results. While I'm far from perfect I'm confident my elevated awareness and desire to become more aware has help those around me grow and question their own ways of being.”